Xen

This is my personal page devoted to information about myself. Here you will find my ideas, philosophy,

political beliefs, literary works (use the term lightly), and collection of random thoughts.

 

Let your mind go...surrealism awaits...

 

Xenisms

Xenisms are sayings and poetry that I create/recycle with my own twist:

My defining quote would have to be:

Nothing is something because by its definition nothing

becomes something in that it is the total

absence of anything.

 

Xenistic Poetry

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I have journeyed to the end of the universe

one no bigger than the limits of my mind

I have seen infinity folded in on itself

and I still don't know why

I have walked with the specter of death

and seen God sit in a corner, no farther than an arm's breadth

I have been alone while surrounded by people

many sitting with their fingers clutched or steepled

I felt parts of my body die

I felt parts of it, like a phoenix, rise

I dreamed nightmares more vivid than thought possible

I have faced my worst fear and made it docile

I have witnessed a part of life

I have come to understand some of the strife

things as large as mountains high

seem now so petty, so benign

-Shawn Kinzel 2002

 

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I can see you

you can't see me

I can hear you

you can't hear me

hello?

nothing

hello?

nothing

I change my mask

and now you are aware

-Shawn Kinzel 2000

 

Ecclectic Dreams of an unyet named Underworld

I sit at night (or is it day?)

I sit and sometimes I pray

I pray to God or to whoever will listen

I was once, but am since no longer christened

I sit and the mind wanders and the dreams flow

sometimes they come but mostly they go

Through purple latex mirrored window panes twirling like smoke from a flame

Silver edged thoughts of unnamed places

Hemorraging filaments of foresaken graces

Lipid clouds of ivory white,

the mind sits and thinks thinks like a blight

Through the synopsis of what is what was what will be

the mind wanders and twists screaming in pain

moaning in ecstacy

warping in confusion

exposing the naked truth of thy innerself

-Shawn Kinzel 1997

Some more Words on a 2-D Screen

(a qausi-compilation)

Does summer come for everyone?

Can humans do what prophets say?

We go like lions through the crest and bathe ourselves in zebra flesh....

Does the mind see what the eye beholds?

Does the wind come...or go?

Where the sun ends and the moss begins,

is this the place that dreams lurk in?

Can we achieve more than we know?

When did childhood end and adulthood begin?

Why does life get harder the longer you live?

I never knew that we'd die for these sins...

we were merely freshmen..

-Shawn Kinzel 1997
(with inspiration from Primative Radio Gods, and the Verve Pipe)

Lamentations of the Cyber-age

I sink in and let the electrons flow

the baud screams like a dying hawk

the monitor glows like an angel from heaven

I close my eyes and let the virtual engulf me

The hard drive blinks in a hypnotic pattern

and I forget who I am

I try hard to suppress all that is around me

I concentrate on the code nothing matters but the code

an orgasmic rush passes in waves as the bits fall into place

the door is unlocked and the information rushes in

I cannot stop it it sears through my mind like white hot flame

fueled as always by caffine

information overload the world crashes down

My mind goes blank I forget who I am I forget what I thought I ...

Memories flood in

childhood memories

memories of long ago

memories that hours of TV and lack of imagination have suppressed

simpler times better times

times before the machine

I sit and weep

innocence is lost

..-Shawn Kinzel 1997

 

BIO DATA

Name: Xen

Xen is actually my internet handle (duh!). I have had this handle since 1993, starting way back to my days on DuneMUSH

(rest its soul).

Real Name: Dude

I am no one special. Just your average person, whose defining trait is he is an individual.

Interest: My interests are varied and many. I love cutting edge technology, but still have a deep appreciation for things that are simple and old.

Literary Interests:

The Dune Series by Frank Herbert

Most of H.P Lovecraft's works

Stephen Hawking

Micheal Stackpole

Sun-Tzu

Micheal Crichton

Franz Kafka

Anne McCaffery

Stephen King

Edgar Allan Poe

Karl Marx (see Philosophy)

Maragret Wiess and Tracy Hickman

Bram Stokker

J. R. R. Tolkein

Neal Stephenson

and many many more

Philosophy

Xenism

Xenism is my own philosophy. I tried long ago

to find a philosophy that aligns with my belief and

way of thinking. I could not find any that fit well

I am a Realists, a Existentialist, a Marxist, a Anarchist

a Futurist and the list goes on. I prefer to say I am Xenist.

Xenism is based on a liquid philosophy that is as chaotic and

ever-changing as I am

I delve into circular thinking, but I usually confuse myself..

But I am no more or no less than who I am.

Religion

 I believe in God. I believe

he created the initial stuff that started the universe,

but from there, we took our own way.

I believe there might be an afterlife, but since I am not ready to die

I do not want to test my theories on it.

Death

I accept it as a fact of life. We were born to die.

Occupation

My Work

or at least I like to think of myself as professional.

I work as a UNIX System Administrator (aka Computer Witch Doctor)

Music

My musical interests are as varied as my other tastes

some of my favorite bands are:

Land of the Loops

Sneaker Pimps

Artifical Joy Club

Souls

K's Choice

U2

Miranda Sex Garden

Heather Nova

Enya

The Cranberries

Orb

Soul Coughing

Moby

Aphex Twin

Astronaut Wife

Almost anything Celtic

the list goes on and on...

ART

My tatstes in art are also varied.

I prefer the surrealists.

Picaso

Salvador Dahli

H R Giger

Munch

 

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